Monday, January 11, 2010
Seriously are you kidding me? This was supposed to be lockdown and none of the brothers stuck to the rules laid out at the beginning of their self imposed “seclusion”. Honestly I’ve seen more order at the Annual White Sale at J.C. Penny. There are way too many “chiefs” and not enough “indians” here. I know this is made for television but come on! Throughout this entire episode, I earnestly hoped Joseph Jackson would walk through the door with some guitar strings and commence to whipping some serious J5 butt! Maybe it’s time for the brothers to watch “This Is It” and glean from their late brother’s tireless work ethic. The funniest thing to me right now with the exception of Tito, was listening to a bunch of men with absolutely no bass in their voices try to argue…it was beyond hilarious!
Jermaine- “Pop Yo Collar” - In the past I’ve been very critical of Jermaine but in this episode as far as the musical side of things, I thought he was on point. Going forward, I think that anything done in Michael’s honor could be an individual or collaborative effort but it must be discussed by those directly involved with the family in order to protect Michael’s legacy. It wasn’t my Jermagination, Jermaine “redeemed” himself in this episode.
Tito “Take Me as I Am”- I thought Tito was going to “give em the business” tonight but if they don’t mind burning precious studio time and money, who am I to say anything? I was looking for Tito to be a bit more forceful and stern, especially in the studio. I think all the roles need to be clearly defined or else there is going to be continual anarchy.
Marlon “Makin Big Moves & Smiles”- I give it to Marlon for always looking to make a situation lighter with diplomacy and laughter, but even he slacked off tonight. Every week we hear about this mysterious “level” that the “Jacksons” operate at, well I’m not seeing it at all. I see a bunch of grown men who need a mediator just to eat gumbo!
Jackie “Sexy Sensitive”- For the second week Jackie disappointed me. OMG if this man isn’t a Taurus (just like me). As much as I love Jackie, wrong is wrong even when he does it. You can’t pick & choose when you’re going to lead. If you’re going to lead you must be in the process of “being” a leader before “doing”. At the onset of this “lockdown” the agenda, the vision, objectives, expectations and even allowances for the unexpected should’ve been made. The ongoing tension between Jackie and Jermaine needs to be solved at either an altar or the playground.
I doubt anyone pays much attention to any of my posts. If you have you’d know I’ve struggled with “religion” and its exhausting attempts to harness what God placed inside of me. I’ve struggled with the hypocrisy of the church. The church preaches Jesus paid for everything I’ve done on the cross but continues to charge me for a debt I can’t ever pay. Through this struggle God told me upfront to depend on His authority and His alone. What is that? True to His Word, God showed me how to take His Word and find who or what contradicts what He said. I can’t even begin to reveal what I discovered. I will say there are many people, many who get up on Sunday morning and preach, teach, sing, and pray, merely practicing what they’re preaching against. God showed me that for many people in the ministry it’s just a “job” one that garners a paycheck. God made this abundantly clear: “April if a church can’t handle your phone calls, why would you trust it with your spiritual matters?” I have since given up on “religion” but I will never give up on my “relationship” with God. You see the entire time I’ve been reading and studying my bible, anything that struck me as odd, I would ask God “would you say that?”, and He would say “No I wouldn’t!” We want so much to believe in the people who are tasked with caring for our spiritual matters but when God shows you the truth it simply can’t be disputed. I didn’t want anything to do with church after that, so imagine how I felt when God sent me back to the “last place” I left.
I was given such a wonderful gift on yesterday in the “last place” I expected to receive anything. I bet you’d like to know what it was huh? It was a hug from a complete “stranger” or so I thought. Yesterday I lost my cell phone and as I went about retracing my steps, I kept coming in contact with “strangers” in a “familiar” place. I was taken by the tireless efforts of one particular “stranger” who seemed to be going out of their way to assist me in locating my phone. I knew I had insurance on my phone so losing it was no big deal, but it was just “one more thing” in a long list of “things lately. It’s a very sad commentary about the state of the world but I am always shocked when people keep their word where I’m concerned. To an observer it would appear that I happened upon this “stranger” by mistake. In retracing my steps to recover my phone, I returned to the "last place" I remembered having seen it. The place was completely void of people but the Holy Spirit prodded me to keep walking. I ran into the “stranger” explained my situation. The “stranger” let me use the phone to call my mother. I sobbed uncontrollably because at that very moment I couldn’t remember my mother’s number (I’ve gotten so used to just clicking “M” for Mother). Anyway the “stranger” had misplaced a work out tape, had only come back to find it and that’s how we intercepted each other. She gave me the number to the “last place” and said I could call anytime. We were both looking for something we’d left in the “last place” we thought to look. Now get this I wasn’t tripping about the phone it was feeling uneasy about being in the “last place” I’d seen it. I had no idea that while I’m at Verizon having my service suspended, the “last place” is making arrangements with my mother to pick up my phone. I tell you when this “stranger” hugged me I felt the power of God and was moved to tears. The “stranger” from the “last place” personally called me at home to make sure everything was okay. To make a long story short the “last place” I’d seen my phone and lost it was a church I’d visited. Now doesn’t this speak to how good God is? The first place was the “last place”, my new church home!