Saturday, November 14, 2009
Remember last Sunday I saw the sun? I saw the sun shine on me as if I were on stage under an impressive spotlight. I got MY answer Lord! All is well Lord and just like YOU promised, everything is already worked out for my good. In a few short days YOU gave me the strength to ride the waves of another storm. Since I know the enemy can’t do anything without your permission, I know this was a God ordained storm. The gale force winds didn’t blow me down this time. I didn’t dissolve in emotional quicksand. I spoke THE WORD! Basically I just reminded YOU of what YOU promised me in your Holy Word. If I give YOU complete control everything with which the enemy means to harm me shall be turned around for YOUR good. Today I had another spontaneous combustion of deliverance followed by copious amounts of praise. I spoke the day I EXPECTED into existence didn’t I? I said today was bright with a high chance of praise. TODAY is the TOMORROW I talked about YESTERDAY! The more I exchange your yoke for my own, the better I feel and my posture just seems to improve. Lord today was a great day indeed and I EXPECT the same tomorrow. I still need to get my church clothes out, shower, and wash my hair, but I just wanted to drop YOU a few lines. I accept that I’ll never be able to write enough to adequately describe how you’ve changed my life, but I figure just like the Holy Bible, my journal is certifiable evidence YOU did do everything YOU said! I love YOU Daddy! I love my big brother JESUS, and I love the HOLY SPIRIT my best friend.
Amazed by your grace!
Thursday, November 12, 2009
It’s comforting how you take your time with me. Last night at bible study YOU confirmed again that you HEAR me. The message was substantive and filling. I took 8 pages of notes. As I recopy them it’s like a soothing compress over a gaping wound. I’m HOPING for so many thingsLord! The man of God was right on, the time between the “promise” and the “manifestation” is usually the time we faint. The first time I knew that I’d heard your voice. I wrote down the time and every word you said BUT I’ve been guilty of trying to remind YOU of what YOU told me. I bet you really get a kick out of the audacity of my humanity. I even thought I should help you out because I thought YOU were taking entirely TOO long. Lord please forgive me, this was before I was taught you don’t exist in time chronologically. I’ve been careful now to ask only for my “daily” bread. It’s fair since you’re a RIGHT NOW GOD! Since you seem to enjoy being at the wheel, I’m going to sleep while we ride my life out together. Lord did you notice that when I got that “news” last Saturday, I didn’t panic? I knew immediately who “it” was from. I instantly gave “IT” to you and started speaking what you’ve hidden in me, the WORD. I saw the sun the very next day and I felt in that moment, that you were hugging me and letting me know the answer was forthcoming. Until the manifestation, I’ll do what I’ve been doing reading the bible again and again from cover to cover. I’ve already made it back to Psalms 74! I know that I am right on the verge of GREATNESS. I remain STEADFAST!
Amazed by your grace!
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
It’s a somber occasion and YOU’RE INVITED! Did you get your invitation? Surely by now you’ve heard that John Allen Muhammad, one of the DC Sniper’s will be executed tonight at 9pm EST. I checked my calendar and it just so happens I will be attending Bible Study tonight. I have lifted up so many prayers today not just for the “good” people but also for the “bad.” All the “random” victims who won’t make the news today, I said prayers for them. I remember the confusion and fear that gripped the Virginia, DC/Metropolitan area back in 2002. The killings appeared so random in nature, just no rhyme or reason. Only a few months earlier I’d been living in that area. If I’d stayed could I have been another “random” victim? Most people have a definitive answer to whether or not they support capital punishment. I don’t! I don’t believe that I have the right to take the life of another human being and label it justice to suit my emotions or grief. However long it takes until John Allen Muhammad breathes his last, there will be no winners today. How can there be a party if everybody is dead?
Have you ever thought about all the “random” people we kill daily? I don’t mean in the physical sense with a .45 caliber weapon or a hunting knife. So what about it, have you killed anyone lately? I have, many times I have “randomly” killed others with my hatred, indifference, xenophobia, deceitfulness, condemnation, inaction, prejudice, innuendo, gossip, judgment, rebellion, abhorrence, pity, and blame. I’ve lethally injected my venom into the spirits of countless people. What should my punishment be? Should I be killed? I’ve taken many lives rendering many “random” people spiritually lifeless. So many bad things that seem “random” are happening. I can’t keep up with the violent slayings, kidnappings, rapes, or burglaries, anymore. I doubt law enforcement could even give an accurate account either. I will have to give an account though when I stand before My Father in Heaven. Justice says~ someone kills, then we kill them, and it’s all to teach us not to kill. If capital punishment was meant to deter us from crime, it has seriously failed in its efforts. I am eligible to be interred at Arlington National Cemetery, but could the “random” way I’ve treated others prevent it? To all my “random” victims I ASK for your earthly forgiveness. To My Heavenly Father, thank you for GRANTING me eternal clemency.